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Hey ppl yeah i am new at this and this is my first time on this site and i wanted something to write or somewhere to write. well this is something i need help with... well i love 2 guys and one lives far away and the otherone ives close enough for me to walk but the bad parts are that the one that lives far away i can nvr see and i hardly talk to the guy but i can tell him everything and the second guy that lives right down the street (practically) has a girlfriend and he is my best friend and he told me he liked me and i didnt reolize how much i really care for this kid until we kissed! it was quick but there is just one thing i know and that is that i would love both so much if we could just see eachother or if we could get together!!! The kiss that was from that second guy was the fairy tale kiss.... the kind of kiss that makes u fly....... the kind of kiss that u nvr think will nvr come.... the kind of kiss that u have with the one u will love for evr....... the kind of kiss u will nvr want to lose..... the kind of kiss u wish will nvr die ........ The kind of kiss that u cant explain!!!! I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO!!! I know this is crazy but i really dont know what to do if anyone has anything that will help plz help and i cant let both of them go cuz there is just that thing where if i dont talk to them i feel empty i feel like i am doing something wrong and i just dont know what i did i really cantbeeive that there is nothing that i can think of doing that will help me!!!! AAHHHHHHHH i just wanna scream so loud and let htem both go even tho it is really hard